(The Sorcerers’ Crossing by Taisha Abelar)
“You can only learn about the double by doing. I’m talking to you only because your transition phase hasn’t ended yet.”
He took me by the arm and without another word, he practically dragged me to the back of the house.
There he positioned me under a tree, with the top of my head a few inches below a low, thick branch.
He said that he was going to see if I could project out my double again, this time in full awareness, with the help of the tree.
I seriously doubted I would be able to project out anything, and I told him so.
He insisted that if I intended it, my double would push out from inside me and expand beyond the boundaries of my physical body.
“What am I supposed to do, exactly?” I asked, hoping he would show me a procedure that was part of the sorcerers’ rule.
He told me to close my eyes and concentrate on my breathing.
As I relaxed, I was to intend a force to flow upward until I could touch the top branches with a feeling that came out of the gate in the crown of my head.
He said that this was going to be fairly easy for me because I was going to use my friend the tree for support.
The tree’s energy, he explained, would form a matrix for my awareness to expand.
After a time of concentrating on my breath, I felt a vibrating energy rising up my back, trying to push out of the top of my head.
Then something opened inside me.
Every time I inhaled, a line elongated to the top of the tree. When I exhaled, the line was pulled down into my body again.
The feeling of reaching the top of the tree became stronger with my every breath until I truly believed that my body expanded, becoming as tall and voluminous as the tree.
At one point, a profound affection and empathy for the tree enveloped me. It was at that same moment that something surged up my back and out my head, and I found myself viewing the world from the top branches.
This sensation lasted only an instant, for it was disrupted by the caretaker’s voice commanding me to
come down and flow inside my body again.
I felt something like a waterfall; an effervescence flowing downward entering the top of my head and
filling my body with a familiar warmth.
“You don’t want to stay mixed with the tree too long,” he told me when I opened my eyes.
I had an overwhelming desire to embrace the tree, but the caretaker pulled me by the arm to a large boulder some distance away, where we sat down.
He pointed out that aided by an outside force, in this case uniting my awareness with the tree, one can easily make the double expand.
However, because it’s easy, we run the risk of staying merged with the tree too long in which case we might sap the tree of the vital energy it needs to maintain itself in a strong and healthy state; or we might leave some of our own energy behind by becoming emotionally attached to the tree.
“One can merge with anything,” he explained.
“If whatever or whomever you merge with is strong, your energy will be enhanced as it was whenever you merged with the magician, Manfred.”
“But if it is sick or weak, stay away.”
“In any case, you must do the exercise sparingly because like everything else, it is a double-edged sword. Outside energy is always different from our own, often antagonistic to it.”